Concert Choir President

So I'm pretty sure I'm concert choir president. I think? Ms. Lee doesn't seem so definite in that decision, unfortunately. I feel like she keeps making up excuses to make me NOT president. So I was late more than a couple times last year. It's not like my failure to attend class on time affected me in the long run. And it makes me upset that she didn't automatically make me president. It's not like I expected her to hand it to me, but I thought it was pretty clear I wanted it most and I don't believe I've done something so horrible to make her doubt my dedication to choir. Unless, leaving for the Philippines and missing the Winter Concert counts. I'd do a great job as president. I only had four freaking years learning the ropes. I guess it just makes me mad because I feel like I deserve it most and even till now I'm technically not guaranteed the title yet. -.-

Another thing. Sabrina's in choir now. And as happy as I am she's in it, I'm so sure her joining is just another thing to add to the list of what she does better than me. I hate being in a family where the adults categorize the kids in the "manners," "smarts," and "looks" department. Everything is a competition in that family. Hell, we even try to one up each other with birthday cards. It would be so much more easier if me and Sab hated each other, but we're each other's best friend. She's the only person that comes to mind who would jump at the chance to watch classic Disney movies with me. She knows exactly how weird I can be when I'm hyper to the max. The only person who understands the pressures of being in my family. Which is why I hate that I'm hesitating to be happy at the fact she's in choir.

Sabrina played the goody girl, while I played the funny one. When we'd have to make speeches at family parties Sab would make this adorable talk while I cracked a couple jokes in my dialogue. Sab always got the better grades, she had the pretty hair, she can dance her butt off, and carry one hell of a tune. While my grades were decent, my hair described as messy at best, no talent at grooving to the beat, I could at least hit all the right notes.  Singing was supposed to be my own special haven, the one thing I can show off in my family because she's not there to say I'm better. I think that's why I need to be choir president. Not even something to just put on my resumes. So I can secure my position as a very important person in choir. But gah. >.<

I'm overreacting. If anything, Sabrina being in choir will only make Senior year better. I'm being self-absorbed.

School's starting in like 8 days and I have yet to read more than half of the first out of three books I'm supposed to be reading. Not to mention the actual analyzing part. I am seriously lagging it.

At least ABDC and ISA are this week. I need to hit my last week off with a bang. And one more trip to Disneyland? If only I could fit in my homework somewhere in there. Ugh. Keeping my fngers crossed.