Stalker Status

I've always believed I've had some strong personal attachment to people I either A.) am friends with, B.) extremely admire, or C.) have sparked an interest in me.

In this particular case, it's C.

My aunt was driving Sabrina and I to Ralph's the other day so we could buy some ice cream when she asked me, "Guess who added me on Facebook?"

Annoyed that she even has a facebook, I carelessly asked, "Who?"

"Miko."

Then major flashbacks hit me. AHA. My tita Gemma's ex-girlfriend had two kids, Miko and Martie. From what she says, Miko's mom was pretty crazy and my tita Gemma was the only father Miko ever knew. When my tita Gemma would babysit me, I'd go over to their house and play video games with him all day and when my parents watched over Miko, he'd even sleep over sometimes. Like we were realllly close. Up until I found out my aunt was a girl and not a boy, I really though Miko was my cousin.

Like, whatever happened to him? I'm so curious. After my aunt and her ex broke up, I didn't see him anymore. A few years ago, I remember Patricia and I found him on MySpace and I sent him a message, but he never replied. Which is why I think I'm afraid to add him for fear of him not remembering who I am because in truth he was a part of my childhood and I would want to know what had happened after we stopped talking. This is sort of irrelevant, but I'm starting to see a recurring theme of fear of rejection in my life and it's starting to block me from making crucial decisions!

My aunt was telling my how he doesn't even go to college because he's in bad terms with his mom (growing thing of when I knew him) and I think he's supporting himself with a job somehow. I don't know. But from what I remember of when we were younger, Miko's had a hard life. He never knew his dad, I think his mom beat him, and his brother was a douche. This is strictly from memory and what my aunt's told me (she's exaggerates a lot though).

So basically I've really been wanting to just talk to him. Ask him how's been and what high school was like or whatever. Lately I've kinda been wanting to just talk to anyone who won't judge me the way someone from school or my friend would. Like a stranger, or better ye,t someone I haven't talked to in so and so years. I think talking to Miko would give my pretty boring life something to talk about. Haha.

Oh and I just want to mention the fact that I think he's a little cute has nothing to do with wanting to talk to him. (I guesssss.)

On that note, I NEED WRITE TO MY PERSONAL STATEMENTS!

Star ng Pasko

 Go ahead. Call me a FOB.

I can't explain it. Ever since I came back from the Philippines almost a year ago, I cant help but think about the time I spent there from time to time.

How much I miss the family and friends I made there. The life I had before I came to Eagle Rock.

This video pretty much sums up why I love the Philippines.

I just love this song. The hope, love, and peace Christmas brings. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful family.

Get a translation if you don't understand.

I seriously can't wait for Christmas break. [:

My week was so "hectic"!

The title of this post is supposed to be a pun on the use of the literal term of hectic and the Australian slang us of it. Ho ho ho. I am so clever. :3

Anyway, I had such a busy busy week. I went to a Laker game on Tuesday, the ACT NOW benefit concert on Wednesday, and Homecoming was on Friday. I barely had any sleep that whole week. There were a couple of in between stuff, but I'm too lazy too mention. I feel the need to mention, however, that my membership within SCO was in jeopardy for like five minutes. It was so retarded. -.- If I was to be kicked out due to church and the fact that I'm president I wouldn't have even given a damn at th at that point.

The Laker game was crazy! Such a huge sea of yellow and gold with a tinge of purple in the seats. I have to admit though, during the time-outs and quarter breaks I was falling asleep. >.< Let me tell you, if you wanna go to a game, make sure you bring at least thirty bucks with you. Fifty if you want to buy some sort of Laker souvenir. It's motherfucking expensive.

The ACT NOW benefit concert was better than I expected. I can't believe I got to work backstage and meet all the talent! I was in charge of the green room and giving wristbands to all the performers and their guests. I got to meet FM again (Every time I meet them, they become so much more appealing), then there was Kaba Modern, Baby Bash, Frankie J (OMG), Dante Basco (OMFG!!), etc. I wish I got a picture with Frankie J ): I was practically the only screaming in the crowd so he kept looking at me when he was singing so it was as if he was serenading me. :D Dante is freaking hilarious. His personality is just as how I imagined it if not nicer! It was definitely a great experience. I got to get to know Stephanie more. And Arianne too! (:

My last Homecoming of high school was pretty great too. The DJ was freaking whack, playing all the rave songs -.-, but the people I danced with made it worth it! (: CJ will forever be my homecoming dance partner. (: We could've totally kept going. Ahaha! Afterwards we crashed at my place. I didn't sleep till five or six.

So Halloween was my Tito Louis' funeral. The only memories I have of him are the smoking and karaoke ones. To be honest, I never really liked him because he was so weird, most likely due to his drug problem, but I was bawling when people went up to talk about him. He has two sisters and both his parents are alive. The grandma was crying so much. I mean to live longer than your child has? Especially when your kid's death could've been prevented? Oh man. When his sisters talked, all they could say was how guilty they felt for pushing him away when he would reach out to them and they didn't appreciate him enough and that they focused too much on the negative rather than the positive. All of the cousins were talking about doing drugs when they were younger (including my dad I think >.<) and how most of them stopped as they got older aside from a few. My Tito Bong used to do a lot of drugs, but then he had a stroke and it resulted with him being handicapped. a lot of the aunts stressed how Tito Louis and Bong are prime examples of how we shouldn't waste our lives on those things. I for one am pretty positive I'll never take drugs in my life that's for sure. The whole thing was rather heartbreaking. His death taught me a really good lesson though. We shouldn't let our hatred over petty fights bring rifts to those we love. I just hope I remember it if ever it comes to that.

For Halloween, Tata, Jek, Beng, and I went trick-or-treating on Hill drive. It was pretty lame. Not much good candy was passed out nor did anyone decorate their house a whole lot. The thing I was so upset about was that I didn't get to hang out with Michael Domingo before he left. I mean I thought it was pretty clear we'd call to let each other know what we were doing, but when I texted Michelle or Nadine, no one replied. Turns out all they did was chill at Michelle's. Thanks for telling me guys. -.- I told Nay I was with my cousins, but I did want to at least say goodbye to Michael Domingo in person. It's not just Michael either. I thought it was tradition to trick-or-treat, or at the very least hang out on Halloween. You'd think it would be possible too what with it being on a Saturday, but I supposed not.  I guess I'm just pissed that no one took into consideration that I might have wanted to hang out with them. I still didn't get a text back.

Well it's two in the morning and I have yet to study for my chapter three psych test. It's kind of really sad how I don't care for that class. Like at all. Time for my one of my favorite things to do: sleep!