Stalker Status

I've always believed I've had some strong personal attachment to people I either A.) am friends with, B.) extremely admire, or C.) have sparked an interest in me.

In this particular case, it's C.

My aunt was driving Sabrina and I to Ralph's the other day so we could buy some ice cream when she asked me, "Guess who added me on Facebook?"

Annoyed that she even has a facebook, I carelessly asked, "Who?"

"Miko."

Then major flashbacks hit me. AHA. My tita Gemma's ex-girlfriend had two kids, Miko and Martie. From what she says, Miko's mom was pretty crazy and my tita Gemma was the only father Miko ever knew. When my tita Gemma would babysit me, I'd go over to their house and play video games with him all day and when my parents watched over Miko, he'd even sleep over sometimes. Like we were realllly close. Up until I found out my aunt was a girl and not a boy, I really though Miko was my cousin.

Like, whatever happened to him? I'm so curious. After my aunt and her ex broke up, I didn't see him anymore. A few years ago, I remember Patricia and I found him on MySpace and I sent him a message, but he never replied. Which is why I think I'm afraid to add him for fear of him not remembering who I am because in truth he was a part of my childhood and I would want to know what had happened after we stopped talking. This is sort of irrelevant, but I'm starting to see a recurring theme of fear of rejection in my life and it's starting to block me from making crucial decisions!

My aunt was telling my how he doesn't even go to college because he's in bad terms with his mom (growing thing of when I knew him) and I think he's supporting himself with a job somehow. I don't know. But from what I remember of when we were younger, Miko's had a hard life. He never knew his dad, I think his mom beat him, and his brother was a douche. This is strictly from memory and what my aunt's told me (she's exaggerates a lot though).

So basically I've really been wanting to just talk to him. Ask him how's been and what high school was like or whatever. Lately I've kinda been wanting to just talk to anyone who won't judge me the way someone from school or my friend would. Like a stranger, or better ye,t someone I haven't talked to in so and so years. I think talking to Miko would give my pretty boring life something to talk about. Haha.

Oh and I just want to mention the fact that I think he's a little cute has nothing to do with wanting to talk to him. (I guesssss.)

On that note, I NEED WRITE TO MY PERSONAL STATEMENTS!