Dear FutureMe,
Wow, it's been a year homie. Futureme 2.0. Haha, you're so lame. Well, you're last letter was fo' serious depressing, if not refreshing. It was actually really cool remembering what was happening during those time which is why you're back here doing it all over.
Time out. You're in the Philippines at Kristella's house about to go partying. Was it fun? I have no idea how it'll turn out because apparently they drink. Kristella wants you to meet boys and stuff, but what the frick. FOBs? Ugh. But wait. She goes to International school. You're growing close to them. And it's scaring you because when you leave you're going to be fucking sad. AJ, Twinkle, Audrey, and Cedric are so big now. AJ goes to UP [fucking genius yo] and you're still a Junior. Senior now. I hope you did really good Junior year. (:
ANYWAY.
So first of all. Lots of lots of changes. Mary and Nadine [Nary. LOL. Joke.] are kaput. Currently, Nadine is with Chris Tokita [Yes, your almost potential crush before] and Mary is totally stalking this hot [Very hot] asian [Korean] cutie [Yes, hot and cute], Chris Cho. I don't think Nay and Chris will work out, but Nadine's trying to find herself right now. Let her do what she wants, but always let her know what you think. She cares what you think. I think Mary's more torn about it, but I'm so proud of her. She's trying really hard. You and Mary's friendship is as strong as ever. Don't lose it. You should be very depressed if you lose Mary because she's in fucking Corona and you barely see her enough as it is.
JCO is driving you insane. So many people making incompetent choices. You've grown closer to CJ and Carolyn. I hope you're in SCO. Although JCO is stressing, it's a great experience.
Fuck basketball. I hope you quit that shit.
Choir. Hm. I kinda want to be president. I think I'm pretty good at bitching at people. Lol. Is Aaron still there? He better has serenaded you by now. (:
Journalism. How is the staff this year? I hope you became Managing editor or at leasr someone very prominent. Haha. Do we suck? I certainly hope not. I actually think we'd do pretty good next year.
Did you quite Gear-up? It's not that bad. I just hope you don't have cholo mentees again. Your kids were pretty cool, it's just hard to keep them in check. Haha.
Key club? Get your fucking hours done! Did you go to DCON and meet cute Koreans? I hope so.
SDYM is still the shit. It's a fact that has been proven numerous times I know it. Haha. How was leader retreat this year? Man, last year was freaking great. Are the new leaders cool? SDYM has changed your life. Remember those weird people you didn't think were cool? Turns out they became some of your closest friends. Keith Alcantara, do not ever lose him. I repeat, do not ever lose him. Keith is freaking great. Justin Domingo is freaking weird, but totally cool and amazing and you love him to death. Graham. I wonder if you've confessed your undying love for him. Lol. Kidding, you're not even sure if you like him, but he's incredibly funny and cute and you better have taken him to JDD. If not, I'll be terribly upset unless it was Michael. Michael! Have you learned to call him Mikey? You and Michael are really close now too and he's a good person. Don't forget that [Haha]. YOU LOVE MICHAEL. You love those boys. Nikole and Sabrina are cool too. Ashley's not as bad as you think. You're
only resenting her because she calls Ate, "Ate" WEIRD. Haha.
Oh, if you haven't figured it out. You have now realized that there is no such thing as a drama-free life. You know that now. Hah.
Michelle Li. Hmm. She's so stressed and busy nowadays, but you know she loves you. I hope she didn't overwork herself this year. Michelle J. She's going through some tough times with her family right now. You have better been there for her, that's unforgivable. The Michelles are great.
Nicole. She's kinda drifting from everyone else. Moving towards the old magnet crew, but I tihnk you guys will always be tight. She gives you books to read when you want. You guys have better still be friends and if she's still in basketball you should be ridiculing her every chance you get. Nicole will always be your friend.
Beng is working so hard right now. Matt. School. Her parents. Be there for her when she needs to vent. Are those two still together? From what I see, I think they are.
Ate. She's your sister, role model, best friend. She may make you go crazy, but she's defintely someone you can rely on. Let her win those petty arguments, she likes the triumph more than you do.
Patricia Erika Tan Gonzalez is your greatest friend. You went through a lot of shit this year too and she was there every step of the way. When you didn't talk to the family for a week because of Nala, she was there to take you in. When the weight of Nanay's death, Nadine's drama, and mary getting mad at you was too much, she was there to keep you sane. When you really just needed to vent, she was there to listen. Listening, that's what she does best. You love her to death and remember to be as great a friend to her as she is to you.
So 2008 has definitely been a rollercoaster of ups and downs.
Highlights: AX '08. PMX '08, KMF '08, Homecoming '08, Your three birthday parties, etc.?
Downside: Nala died. DRAMA. <-- UGH!
But so far, going into 2009, things look pretty good. I hope you were able to finish all your homework. Haha. Anyway, let's finish off with some things to think about. Don't overanalyze every situation. Let whatever happens, happen. It was meant to be. Don't give up good opportunities. Just go for it. Really. But most importantly, just remember to be yourself.
Oh wait. Do you have/had a boyfriend yet? I hope you didn't rush into anything. Don't forget that's the reason why you've been single for the sixteen years you've been alive. You want your first kiss/boyfriend or whatever to be someone you really like. Don't be pressured to do anything you don't want to. Love yourself and just have fun with your fucking cool friends, kay? (:
When you read this, don't be surprised. Otherwise, that means a lot of changes have happened. But it's okay as long as you've kept the friends that matter and are happy. Well till next time.
Love, Kathlynn Marie Sicam Alba<3
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
The Past Month
I hate not updating my blog in consistent periods of time because then when I look back at my past posts I know I'm going to be wondering what in the hell I did between this and that date. -.-
So Geni's debut finally happened. I suppose all of the abuse from Michael and bitching from Geni was worth it. It was pretty fun and it felt so good nailing that dance with Michael. Geni's photobooth idea was sick too. They were sooo addicting. I ended up sleeping over night at the hotel and drank for the first time. I kind of wish I waited for my friends and I to do it all together though. After all, apparently it's best to drink with your best friends for the first time. The only real downside was that I lost the eyeliner my sister gave me for my birthday. ))): And it was like twenty bucks and some. D: I'm glad I got to do a debut before Nay's at least so that I know what I'm getting myself into the next couple months. I'm super excited for hers since my best friends are gonna be in it. [:
UC and CalState apps were do at the end of October. I'm really praying for UCSD. >.< I haven't decided if I still want to apply to USC. :/
The Winter Choir Concert was a complete success! I mean aside from "okay" performances by Senior Chorus and Junior Choir, the concert went pretty good. It feels so good to say that I was the president that got over 650 people to come to the choir concert. Yeah, that's never been happened before. Of course it wouldn't have happened without Michelle, Nadine, and a bunch of other people. Going through this period of utter stress made me see the lack of chemistry Michelle and I have as VP and President. She said some hurtful words about choir that I don't understand a VP, let alone one of my best friends, could be saying. I was thinking about confronting her about it, but it ended up not happening and we were cool again. I just hope that something like this doesn't happen again and I don't end up saying things I'll regret.
Oh, speaking of choir, Jun is leaving for Korea during break so tomorrow (if I see him at all) will technically be the last day I see him. I really do regret not becoming friends with him. It'd be cool having a friend from another country. I'm such a pussy. ):
Patricia got me into this really cool English (yes from England) teen drama called "Skins." It has some pretty hot boys and even though the story lines have been done before, the way it's presented is entirely different from American shows. 1.) There's no censorship in England apparently so you've got boobs popping out every now and then. 2.) They use the word "fuck" in pretty much every sentence of the episodes, WITHOUT making it seem overly used. 3.) The accents are incredibly enticing, especially from British hottie, Nicholas Hoult (: 4.) The situations, albeit a bit far-fetched and harsh, are understandable. Yeah, even with the sex, drugs, and alcohol. I find myself saying, "This really does happen," unlike shows from the US. 5.) Yes, it is basically like Degrassi, except on E. I totally recommend you watch it. [:
I hate Journalism. I mean, I love it in that sense that I do have some passion for writing, but I'm so sick of the lack of motivation coming from the whole staff. Of course I'm thankful to Jennifer, David and Gerson and those that stay after and help and stuff, but putting together a paper (WITH NICE LAYOUT. NO HALF-ASSING!) is time-consuming and missing my choir party was the last straw. I know I'm layout editor and it's my job, but it sucks doing all this shit when Nicole, Managing Editor, sits back and laughs at Aaron's jokes or whatever. And the nerve of her to tell the class that they should be going out there getting their own info and stuff when she asks me to get quotes from Ms. Lee. Like, what the fuck Nicole. I think I'm avoiding her. And I think it's because I feel like I might blow up at her face and I don't want that to happen. ): Jennifer really cares about the paper, but she leans more towards the half-ass side in layout and content. Ugh, it's so frustrating because I remember last year when we would talk about how awesome it would be to leading journalism because we finally get to do it our way. Apparently to Nicole, that means taking advantage of her spot as managing editor and using her excuse of not knowing how to use computers as a way to get out of doing any work. Ugh, I don't know I'm just so frustrated with Journalism. I freaking missed the last bonding time with choir before winter break. Arghhh!
I'm sick of all the SCO drama and arguing and telling people to shut up and giving out strikes like free laker tickets and the fact I didn't get a white elephant present because Natalie took my $15 AE gift card because Nicole (AGAIN!) brought two gifts and fucked up the cycle, but it's all worth it when I get to finally see the unity in my class. I remember when everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, was so defiant of 2010. They hated the name 2010 (As if we could help the year we graduate. -.-). They hated our posters. They hated that we kept losing. They basically hated everything at the beginning of Junior year. Then JDD happened and it was success. Then Dustbowl happened and we won. I just want to say that I've stuck by my class through thick and thin man and as much as I was hoping the Alamedians would be chose, we really are the Aristonians. The Best Ones. Winning the Christmas Tree Decorating contest was fucking great. [:
I think my favorite class is English because I sit next to Michelle J, Nay, and Cass, but also because I love our discussions on what we read. Being in that class is so intellectually-stimulating as oppose to Kobaissi's dumb IQ-sucking class that I hold with contempt. I feel like I get to really open my opinions and ideas in Kronish's class. It's pretty awesome. [:
The class I have the most love/hate relationship with (Aside from Journalism) is Film Production/Stage Design. I took it to fill up my tech requirement instead of Flash or taking it at a CC. I love mostly the whole idea of making our own movies with Malmed basically giving us a blank slate to work with and acting out play scenes since it was something I've been interested in for a long time, but never actually had the balls to pursue it. But when Malmed makes us write reflections on old movies (which I also enjoy thanks to Kyle!), I find it so pointless. The class is an elective and we're already doing a lot of pretty different creative thinking going on. Writing short essays makes the class so much less appealing. Anyway, Cassie and I were assigned a silent video project to do and it turned out awesome. We used my sexy HD camcorder and had Jason as our male role and Cassie as the leading lady. I love how Wong Fu and just a bunch of people that I've been interested in have changed me a little.
Our next video, I want it to be on these Seniors (2 or 3) who talk about being friends for a long time then let some minor issue tear them apart but they eventually go back to talk to one another and stuff. It sounds lame when I explain it here, but I already have the scenes in my head. It looks pretty cool. [: I don't know if this newfound interest I have in film is a sign for anything I will be doing in college, but all I know is that I have a lot of fun doing it.
Oh. I wrote a futureme letter to myself a year ago and it should be e-mailed to me in a couple days. I really don't remember the stuff I wrote. So I'm pretty excited to read it. (:
These are basically a couple things I wanted to talk about since I haven't blogged in a while. Winter Break officially starts at 3:05 PM tomorrow. Holla! [:
PS I'm sick of people using Twitter as their official bitch to the world engine. When I go on Twitter, I like reading funny or some sort of nice tweets, not "FML!" or "Fuck fuck fuck" or just complaining about petty problems. I mean I pretty much do it all the time in person, but letting other people read your constant shit attitude to the world is annoying.
PPS I want to use tumblr more!
So Geni's debut finally happened. I suppose all of the abuse from Michael and bitching from Geni was worth it. It was pretty fun and it felt so good nailing that dance with Michael. Geni's photobooth idea was sick too. They were sooo addicting. I ended up sleeping over night at the hotel and drank for the first time. I kind of wish I waited for my friends and I to do it all together though. After all, apparently it's best to drink with your best friends for the first time. The only real downside was that I lost the eyeliner my sister gave me for my birthday. ))): And it was like twenty bucks and some. D: I'm glad I got to do a debut before Nay's at least so that I know what I'm getting myself into the next couple months. I'm super excited for hers since my best friends are gonna be in it. [:
UC and CalState apps were do at the end of October. I'm really praying for UCSD. >.< I haven't decided if I still want to apply to USC. :/
The Winter Choir Concert was a complete success! I mean aside from "okay" performances by Senior Chorus and Junior Choir, the concert went pretty good. It feels so good to say that I was the president that got over 650 people to come to the choir concert. Yeah, that's never been happened before. Of course it wouldn't have happened without Michelle, Nadine, and a bunch of other people. Going through this period of utter stress made me see the lack of chemistry Michelle and I have as VP and President. She said some hurtful words about choir that I don't understand a VP, let alone one of my best friends, could be saying. I was thinking about confronting her about it, but it ended up not happening and we were cool again. I just hope that something like this doesn't happen again and I don't end up saying things I'll regret.
Oh, speaking of choir, Jun is leaving for Korea during break so tomorrow (if I see him at all) will technically be the last day I see him. I really do regret not becoming friends with him. It'd be cool having a friend from another country. I'm such a pussy. ):
Patricia got me into this really cool English (yes from England) teen drama called "Skins." It has some pretty hot boys and even though the story lines have been done before, the way it's presented is entirely different from American shows. 1.) There's no censorship in England apparently so you've got boobs popping out every now and then. 2.) They use the word "fuck" in pretty much every sentence of the episodes, WITHOUT making it seem overly used. 3.) The accents are incredibly enticing, especially from British hottie, Nicholas Hoult (: 4.) The situations, albeit a bit far-fetched and harsh, are understandable. Yeah, even with the sex, drugs, and alcohol. I find myself saying, "This really does happen," unlike shows from the US. 5.) Yes, it is basically like Degrassi, except on E. I totally recommend you watch it. [:
I hate Journalism. I mean, I love it in that sense that I do have some passion for writing, but I'm so sick of the lack of motivation coming from the whole staff. Of course I'm thankful to Jennifer, David and Gerson and those that stay after and help and stuff, but putting together a paper (WITH NICE LAYOUT. NO HALF-ASSING!) is time-consuming and missing my choir party was the last straw. I know I'm layout editor and it's my job, but it sucks doing all this shit when Nicole, Managing Editor, sits back and laughs at Aaron's jokes or whatever. And the nerve of her to tell the class that they should be going out there getting their own info and stuff when she asks me to get quotes from Ms. Lee. Like, what the fuck Nicole. I think I'm avoiding her. And I think it's because I feel like I might blow up at her face and I don't want that to happen. ): Jennifer really cares about the paper, but she leans more towards the half-ass side in layout and content. Ugh, it's so frustrating because I remember last year when we would talk about how awesome it would be to leading journalism because we finally get to do it our way. Apparently to Nicole, that means taking advantage of her spot as managing editor and using her excuse of not knowing how to use computers as a way to get out of doing any work. Ugh, I don't know I'm just so frustrated with Journalism. I freaking missed the last bonding time with choir before winter break. Arghhh!
I'm sick of all the SCO drama and arguing and telling people to shut up and giving out strikes like free laker tickets and the fact I didn't get a white elephant present because Natalie took my $15 AE gift card because Nicole (AGAIN!) brought two gifts and fucked up the cycle, but it's all worth it when I get to finally see the unity in my class. I remember when everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, was so defiant of 2010. They hated the name 2010 (As if we could help the year we graduate. -.-). They hated our posters. They hated that we kept losing. They basically hated everything at the beginning of Junior year. Then JDD happened and it was success. Then Dustbowl happened and we won. I just want to say that I've stuck by my class through thick and thin man and as much as I was hoping the Alamedians would be chose, we really are the Aristonians. The Best Ones. Winning the Christmas Tree Decorating contest was fucking great. [:
I think my favorite class is English because I sit next to Michelle J, Nay, and Cass, but also because I love our discussions on what we read. Being in that class is so intellectually-stimulating as oppose to Kobaissi's dumb IQ-sucking class that I hold with contempt. I feel like I get to really open my opinions and ideas in Kronish's class. It's pretty awesome. [:
The class I have the most love/hate relationship with (Aside from Journalism) is Film Production/Stage Design. I took it to fill up my tech requirement instead of Flash or taking it at a CC. I love mostly the whole idea of making our own movies with Malmed basically giving us a blank slate to work with and acting out play scenes since it was something I've been interested in for a long time, but never actually had the balls to pursue it. But when Malmed makes us write reflections on old movies (which I also enjoy thanks to Kyle!), I find it so pointless. The class is an elective and we're already doing a lot of pretty different creative thinking going on. Writing short essays makes the class so much less appealing. Anyway, Cassie and I were assigned a silent video project to do and it turned out awesome. We used my sexy HD camcorder and had Jason as our male role and Cassie as the leading lady. I love how Wong Fu and just a bunch of people that I've been interested in have changed me a little.
Our next video, I want it to be on these Seniors (2 or 3) who talk about being friends for a long time then let some minor issue tear them apart but they eventually go back to talk to one another and stuff. It sounds lame when I explain it here, but I already have the scenes in my head. It looks pretty cool. [: I don't know if this newfound interest I have in film is a sign for anything I will be doing in college, but all I know is that I have a lot of fun doing it.
Oh. I wrote a futureme letter to myself a year ago and it should be e-mailed to me in a couple days. I really don't remember the stuff I wrote. So I'm pretty excited to read it. (:
These are basically a couple things I wanted to talk about since I haven't blogged in a while. Winter Break officially starts at 3:05 PM tomorrow. Holla! [:
PS I'm sick of people using Twitter as their official bitch to the world engine. When I go on Twitter, I like reading funny or some sort of nice tweets, not "FML!" or "Fuck fuck fuck" or just complaining about petty problems. I mean I pretty much do it all the time in person, but letting other people read your constant shit attitude to the world is annoying.
PPS I want to use tumblr more!
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