The Year 2009

So 2009 is finally coming to an end. This year has been filled with... a lot of mixed emotions I guess. Ahaha. There's a lot of love and hate going on when I look back. A lot of staying a kid and growing up. A lot of trips to Disneyland. A lot of meeting new people. Experiencing my first love. And heartbreak I suppose. Applying to colleges. Just basically opening my eyes to what's to happen the next couple of months.

I feel a lot closer to my cousins this year. Mainly the Sicam side because well, I'm already close to my Alba side. I mean the Sicams are close, but this year I feel like we really made the effort to forget everything and just love each other. Because that's how it should be.

The other day I was thinking about the type of person I am and it really got me thinking about possible scenarios that may hold. For starters, I'm actually a very passive person. I mean I'm aggressive in the sense that I'll kick your ass if you do this, but not the initiator or serious type of stuff. I'll probably secretly hate you, but only because of that one time. I hate holding grudges or lingering from the past because the only thing you should be really doing is looking towards the future. And that's why I vow to never be the type of person to hold something against someone because who gives a shit now. I certainly wouldn't.

Along with the new year, I decided to tell that one guy my feelings since God knows. That I know nothing will happen, but for my own sake and sanity I really need to get it off my chest. Hah. I hope it doesn't get awkward. But you know that always happens. -.-

I should be getting ready to go to Disneyland, but I'll write a couple of my resolutions down.

1. Stop giving my parents such a hard time. My mom woke me up on New Years saying lecturing me on how I haven't done anything around the house and all I do is eat, sleep, poop, and go out. It sucked wake up to that, but it did make me feel bad so I guess it did it's job.
2. Get along more with my sister. I haven't spoken to my sister in two or three days due to this epic Twitter battle we had going on (She provoked it). Again. I let go quicker than she does, but her damn arrogant self makes it so hard to reconcile.
3. Help out around the house more. I'm fucking useless when it comes to chores and stuff. I need to start picking up my weight if I'm going to be living in a dorm when September comes rolling along.
4. Eat healthier (Less soda? No more sweets?). I don't remember the last time I ate a good solid meal. Enough said.
5. Learn my limits (In all aspects I suppose. HAHA). Yes, in all aspects such as drinking, going out late, arguing with my parents/sister. Anything really.
6. Tell my loved ones how much I love them. More than I already do!
7. Maintain my important friendships! <-- Muy importante!
8. Be more honest and upfront. First task: CONFESSION!
9. Write a lot in my moleskin. I know I'll look back and laugh/cry at the things I've written down.

This is all for now I suppose. Thank you God for 2010. To new starts. To new beginnings. And to a new year. (: