Yay for change!

Something that really scares me is how fast someone's emotions can change.

I remember telling Nay that my mom lost her job. We were laughing about something when Nadine asked why I was so sad because of my tweet and in the midst of all the happiness, I started to cry.

So a couple weeks ago my mom got layed off. As a result of this I won't be a CSUF freshman this fall; I'm going to PCC. Which I think I'm fine with since I wasn't totally attached to Fullerton what with me being rejected practically to every school I applied to, but I honestly didn't think I'd end up going to a CC. I really saw myself going to SD or at least Irvine and living the college life, whatever the hell that means. But going to PCC makes sense. I have one parent making income while my sister's schooling is still being paid off. I can't afford going to Fullerton. I suppose the common thought of going to PCC equates going nowhere in life got to me. But I know this isn't true. IE. my sister (UCI), Ate Bran'd (UCLA), Ate Shan'l (UCSD). It's just... I seriously worked my ass off in high school. It sucks knowing I don't deserve this. I cried a lot. My parents are so wonderful. My dad is working double shifts and overtime so I can get my car (I NEED MY FUCKING LICENSE!). My mom asked if I hated her which was ridiculous because I can't hate someone who not only lost her job, but who said if I wanted to go to Fullerton, I could.

Hopefully going to PCC doesn't change my relationships, however. I still see myself being amazing friends with Small Shot and going to Disneyland with Team L and running errands with CJ. I'm an optimistic person and I won't let going to PCC and not a Cal State or UC bring me down. As long as I receive my degree and make big bucks in the future is all that matters. All I can hope for is that this is God's path for me for something bigger. I'm praying at least.

A LOT of things have happened since April 4 by the way aside from my mom losing her job.
 
Prom was everything I imagined and more. With FM, the photobooths, and the posters there, I really felt like I planned prom to be that amazing. I don't give a fuck if people bitched about anything, I had an amazing time. Eric Kim was a great date. After party was hella crackin'. I probably partied with a random bunch of group, but we all had a great time. I need to learn how to control my liquor intake though. I didn't throw up though. :D

I graduated high school. HOLY FUCK RIGHT?! It feels like only yesterday I was blogging on xanga about entering Eagle Rock for the first time as a scrub. I'm going to miss high school a lot. Eagle Rock high school is always gonna hold a special place in my heart. Fuck, those were some good six years. Patricia's going to Fullerton. Nay's going to SDSU. Michelle Li's going to SJSU. Michelle J's going to AAU. And Mary's going to the Marines. How fucking crazy is that? I've known these girls for soo long and we've stuck by each other since the beginning. I mean, aside from Michelle J. missing a few years, Nay going to Glendale for our freshman year, and Mary moving to Corona Junior and Senior year, we've all managed to still remain close. And for that I'm thankful. Not seeing their faces every day is going to be hard. Really hard. But knowing that they're there is something I will be able to look forward when we do finally hang out.

Nadine's debut was a fucking great weekend. I ate so much unhealthy shit that week. Our dances were mos def not the best, but her court was awesome. Spending that whole week with them after practices and what not was hella fun. Going to burbank to Buffalo Wild Wings, watching Toy Story 3, and taking cues was great. For every big event there needs to be a photobooth. It's just too much fun for everyone. (: And you can never get enough pictures. Haha! The first night at the hotel was fun. I always have fun drunk so when I hear about the KJ's in the morning I just remember having a good time. Had like three hours of sleep and went to Denny's. Pretty much chilled and bonded at the hotel the whole day. Then Patricia and I went to Nikole's debut. I make great candle speeches. [': I finally told Edward I liked him in high school. Suh-weet. We went back to the hotel and watch the Senior DVD. It was whatever. I am sooo peeved by mistakes in final productions. ): The it was Boys VS Girls Catchphrase and it was complete BULLSHIT that Ria and I lost!! D< Michael sucks at giving and answering clues! It was really fun though even if Jason and Michael can be big dicks sometimes. The Wiggles and Selena Gomez fucking cracked me up. I need a rematch STAT! Finished Monday eating at Noodle World with what was left of the court and getting me some taro smoothie w/ no boba. (:

I watched Eclipse with Nicole and Caroline a few hours ago and I liked it. It's made me miss reading. I want new books sooo bad. D: Anyway, this has been an amazing start of summer and I need everything to flow this way till the end.

The Last Airbender tomorrow. Disneyland on Thursday. AX on Friday or Saturday. WHOO! Let's do this! (;

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